The Christian Life

Quiet some years ago now, i asked Jesus into my heart. My life at the time was really screwed up. Was into stuff that went against God, was in and out of drugs pretty heavy, that had went on for years and years. Shortly after truly finding Salvation in Christ, things took a turn for the worse for me. Didn't see it coming. Had been going to church got very involved as much as i could. Was reading and studying the Bible a great deal, was learning so much. After coming across something written in Scripture, that really opened my eyes. Knew with all my heart the Lord by Hos Spirit was showing me something and even though at the time i didn't fully understand it, i held to it. I took it to my mom and dad and see what they had to say. My dad got so mad with me, he said i was going against the Church and i had no right doing that. My mom kept quiet, she wouldn't say anything but you could see the disappointment in her eyes and could tell also she didn;t know what to do.

Then not long after, one evening was trying to tell my husband about some of the things i was coming across in Scripture and what i thought. We ended up arguing. I'm the kind of person who will begin shutting down when argues and such get heated up. But that evening i argued back some and it didn't take long at all to get thrown into a wall, i tried getting away, our kids all begin crying and yelling for their dad to stop. He didn't stop he came after me and threw the table over and i was thrown into the wall and a window, my back hit the window frame, and took a few punches in my stomach. He finally stopped, he finally realized our kids were all stadning there screaming there heads off begging him to stop. We had been marrying for 6 or maybe 7 years at that point and he had never got pysically violent with me before.

The physical abuse didn't stop after that, it took some time before that completely stopped. I didn;t get out of the marriage, many time i wished i had. I remained thinking it was the right thing to do and this would stop, prayed and prayed for it to stop. Hubby had told me i had changed and i left him behind and i had no right to do that.  2 people now, my dad and my husabdn had both told me i had no right to do something.

Me, i'm one that listens to music 24/7 almost. One day i was in my kitchen my radio playing on a Christian station. My mind was on so much that was going on and it was having its tole on me, i begin breaking down and just then this song came on the radio, was the first time i ever heard it come on. The music started and i was trying to focus on something and then i felt the Lord's presence. An over welming feeling came over me and i was breaking down, crying with a mixture of joy and deep sadness. For a moment or so i forgot a song was playing and then some of the words caught my attentiona nd when those words was being sung it was if the Lord Jesus was letting me know through them words being sung, He had me. The words that spoke out to em was, "My Deliverer is coming - my Deliverer is standing by, He will never break His promise."

The song was a new one, by Rich mullins who had not been long killed in an accident. The song hit the charts and was being played on the radio each day. Thing was though at that time there wasn't a day i didn't feel as i could go on much longer and was crying alone somewhere. Always somewhere no one would know, I kept everything that was going on hid from everyone. That song 'My Deliverer' would come on, and it was as if the Lord was purposely playing it at that very moment for me, and it didn't matter where i was, in a store, in my car, and i needed to have that promise reminded to me, that song would play.

Neat thing is almost 12 years later, when i'm really down and on verge of breaking down or i am breaking down, that song will still come on at that very moment and its as if the Lord is whispering in my ear, "I Am coming, I Am standing by, I will never break my promise to you."

Jesus is always there for us.

Just felt like sharing that.

I am so sorry I didn't see this post sooner.  That is an amazing testimony!  Thank you so much for sharing that!  That just brought a little encouragement into my life!